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Thursday, October 16, 2008 New wine for the new wine skin So it's been a little while sense I've written. You are aloud to slap my hand. :) Settling in, knuckling down, looking ahead. It's been a busy month. I played hopscotch again with my job again. Hopefullly I can stay planted. That is my prayer anyway. I've worked in healthcare a couple years, and I have had such a hard time. I know this is the kind of work I'd like to do. I love working with people. Sharing the Father's love if not by my words by my actions: a difference in my tome, my touch, just loving on people. There is safety in that...because Love is God, and God is Love. My quandry is this though: I've run into so much neglect and abuse, passive or very much intentional. The overly dramatised turnaround with staffing, and the gossiping and rumers. It wairs one down. These things go on and no one wants to stay in an invronment like that. Constantly understaffed, I'm killing myself on the floor. I lose track of the reason I am there. So i changed jobs once again. It feels different here. Higher standards of care, I'm aloud to pray with people (it being a christian organization) I feel as though it's a step in the right direction. Anyway, I started school. Anatomy and physiology. Woo hoo, after this I apply for nursing school. :) Marrried life continues to be a wonderful adventure. It has it's highs and lows. I find myself learning so much more than i could have ever imagined. We migh have disagreements..or do things differently but it's learning to adapt and say ,,you know sometimes it's ok to do it differently even if i'm not confident in my abilities to do it your way. He loves me. It amazes me. Even after a coouple years sometimes i get this wierd thought in my head that i'm not everything he thinks i am. The fact that even in my shortfalls he finds joy and brings grace to that area...i couldn't have asked for a more wonderful husband. I am truely blessed. Anyway, I'm rambling on and on, so I shall say tata for now. Be blessed in all your dealings. With love, Ashley Thursday, September 11, 2008 Moodiness What is it that makes us lose our joy?How is it that minor frustrations and inconsistancies can make us lose site of what the Father has in front of us.Of couse I speak in congrigational terms because I assume everyone has this problem and i'm not alone in my struggle.Lately I've noticed that my mood hinges on other's moods. Especially my husband's. If he hasn't had a very good day and is downhearted of an evening. I find myself in that same predicament, even when i've had a wonderful day.I find i allow minor annoyances such as the stack of paperwork I had to fax to the school today for my financial aid make me cranky. It was as if every screech and beep of that fax machine scraped my nerves. I wonder if instead of dwelling on these things we just stop and say Father I need help here. Renew my mind, give me a fresh perspective. He is that peace that passes all understanding, and I so rarely tap into that. Anyway, I believe i'm going to go kiss my husband.Tootles.Ashley Friday, August 15, 2008 Itchy nose and my wedding vows So, there are so many things i could blog about... but i don't quite have the energy. We just returned home from our honeymoon...which was....absolutely and completely fabulous. :) I guess a couple things come to my mind when i think back on my wedding day... -My maid of honor krystil having it out with me...telling me that i'm not in control...that the Father was...so i just needed to butt out:) That's why i love her. -Telling my dad it was not exactly good to have the bride trip down the isle...that he needed to slow down. -My daddy telling me it was going to be OK. -The look on Marks face the first time we met eyes down the isle. -My nose itched! I had my bouquet in one hand marks marks hand in the other and my vail was making my nose itch! And i could not relieve it. I tried so hard to listen to what my grandfather was saying but i was a gonner until my itch passed...which it did..finally. It really did turn out to be beautiful. I haven't gotten all our pictures yet. There is more to come. Ashley Saturday, August 09, 2008 3:26 am on my wedding day... Yes, I am awake...I can't sleep. I drank a glass of wine before bed, and that knocked me out for a while...but now i'm wide awake... There is so much to do today. I hope it turns out lovely. Anyway, tootles, Ashley