Hello

So I've switched over to this blogging site because I wasn't content with using xanga. I've posted below some entries over the last couple months just in case you're curious.

Anyway, boy I can't believe it's already November! October was gone before I could take a breath.

Friday, which was Halloween deemed to be quite the experiance.
I worked that morning and had a big project due for school. I stayed in town to finish it and did some grocery shopping. Let me tell you: Halloween is not the day to do your shopping folks. lol Needless to say I was busy for a while. Anyway that isn't the interesting part.

A couple months ago Mark installed a couple camera's around the outside of the house because of some neighborhood kids attempting to steal things. So anyway, Halloween night mark set out a bowl of candy on the front porch with a sign over the doorbell saying "Happy Halloween, please take 3 pieces". Not long after that he got his first trick or treaters. They were older kids. Mark saw them on the camera at the front porch. They dumped the whole bowl in their backpacks! lol So mark followed them out as they were leaving and they were gone.. He walks out to the front road, and finally sees them accross the street. In a very authoritive voice he says "You guys stole my candy!"..."you need to return it now!"
lol so we have video of them stealing it, and then coming back with mark to return it. I had a good chuckle when he showed me. lol All the other trick or treaters were wonderful after that though.

Yesterday I got a phonecall from my mom. A really good family freind was killed in the last couple days. He was our neighbor when i was a kid..a retired veterinarian...he lived kitty corner to my parent's property. Over the last couple of months he had taken my brothers under his wing; teaching them how to train dogs, and taking them to the clinic every once in a while. Ben was really close to him (my youngest brother..who's 8) Ben's having a really hard time. Ben just amazes me. Evadently yesterday doc's sheep were out and ben decided he was going to help him get them in. He walked over to their house, and doc's wife told him the news. Ben came back home, upset but calm. He comes to my dad in the computer room. He says.. daddy docs been in an accident. My dad says oh no...is he ok? Ben tells him..no daddy he's not coming back home.
It just breaks my heart.. for him to have to lose innocince that way..he has such a firm grasp. Later he told my mom that he just wished the rapture would come so that he could see doc again. He's heartbroken because he didn't get to say goodbye. My mom told him that maybe they could go to the funeral so that he could. Ben tells her..but mom doc won't be at the funeral...just his body. Ben just amazes me and blesses me so much. I came to see him and held him so tight. I have wonderful brothers.
Anyway I'll say goodbye for now.
ttfn
Ashley

Up until now :)

Thursday, October 16, 2008 New wine for the new wine skin So it's been a little while sense I've written. You are aloud to slap my hand. :) Settling in, knuckling down, looking ahead. It's been a busy month. I played hopscotch again with my job again. Hopefullly I can stay planted. That is my prayer anyway. I've worked in healthcare a couple years, and I have had such a hard time. I know this is the kind of work I'd like to do. I love working with people. Sharing the Father's love if not by my words by my actions: a difference in my tome, my touch, just loving on people. There is safety in that...because Love is God, and God is Love. My quandry is this though: I've run into so much neglect and abuse, passive or very much intentional. The overly dramatised turnaround with staffing, and the gossiping and rumers. It wairs one down. These things go on and no one wants to stay in an invronment like that. Constantly understaffed, I'm killing myself on the floor. I lose track of the reason I am there. So i changed jobs once again. It feels different here. Higher standards of care, I'm aloud to pray with people (it being a christian organization) I feel as though it's a step in the right direction. Anyway, I started school. Anatomy and physiology. Woo hoo, after this I apply for nursing school. :) Marrried life continues to be a wonderful adventure. It has it's highs and lows. I find myself learning so much more than i could have ever imagined. We migh have disagreements..or do things differently but it's learning to adapt and say ,,you know sometimes it's ok to do it differently even if i'm not confident in my abilities to do it your way. He loves me. It amazes me. Even after a coouple years sometimes i get this wierd thought in my head that i'm not everything he thinks i am. The fact that even in my shortfalls he finds joy and brings grace to that area...i couldn't have asked for a more wonderful husband. I am truely blessed. Anyway, I'm rambling on and on, so I shall say tata for now. Be blessed in all your dealings. With love, Ashley Thursday, September 11, 2008 Moodiness What is it that makes us lose our joy?How is it that minor frustrations and inconsistancies can make us lose site of what the Father has in front of us.Of couse I speak in congrigational terms because I assume everyone has this problem and i'm not alone in my struggle.Lately I've noticed that my mood hinges on other's moods. Especially my husband's. If he hasn't had a very good day and is downhearted of an evening. I find myself in that same predicament, even when i've had a wonderful day.I find i allow minor annoyances such as the stack of paperwork I had to fax to the school today for my financial aid make me cranky. It was as if every screech and beep of that fax machine scraped my nerves. I wonder if instead of dwelling on these things we just stop and say Father I need help here. Renew my mind, give me a fresh perspective. He is that peace that passes all understanding, and I so rarely tap into that. Anyway, I believe i'm going to go kiss my husband.Tootles.Ashley Friday, August 15, 2008 Itchy nose and my wedding vows So, there are so many things i could blog about... but i don't quite have the energy. We just returned home from our honeymoon...which was....absolutely and completely fabulous. :) I guess a couple things come to my mind when i think back on my wedding day... -My maid of honor krystil having it out with me...telling me that i'm not in control...that the Father was...so i just needed to butt out:) That's why i love her. -Telling my dad it was not exactly good to have the bride trip down the isle...that he needed to slow down. -My daddy telling me it was going to be OK. -The look on Marks face the first time we met eyes down the isle. -My nose itched! I had my bouquet in one hand marks marks hand in the other and my vail was making my nose itch! And i could not relieve it. I tried so hard to listen to what my grandfather was saying but i was a gonner until my itch passed...which it did..finally. It really did turn out to be beautiful. I haven't gotten all our pictures yet. There is more to come. Ashley Saturday, August 09, 2008 3:26 am on my wedding day... Yes, I am awake...I can't sleep. I drank a glass of wine before bed, and that knocked me out for a while...but now i'm wide awake... There is so much to do today. I hope it turns out lovely. Anyway, tootles, Ashley